what would you do?

Seriously.
at this point in my life i go to everyone for advice. and instead of doing what i really want to do, i take everyone else's advice thinking that they have a bird's eye view on the situation. and then it all makes sense to me that it IS the right thing to do. so i do it. and then i act the opposite of what i had decided before was going to be the RIGHT thing.

I know that was one of those "i knew that you knew that i knew" types of rambles but its the only vague way of saying anything and its the only way i could say it and have it make sense in my head.

I miss hugs. that mean something
and kisses that make you want to smile more than to breathe.
and just looking at each other knowing that everything around you may be falling apart but you make the other person complete. thinking about wanting that makes me cry. no matter where i am. because my body aches for genuine love.
and I'm looking for it in all the wrong places.

Help.